I owe my poor neglected blog an apology... I'm sorry I have been avoiding you. There, I said it, I have been avoiding my blog. In the two months since my last post much has happened - a wonderful tenth anniversary vacation (I even brought back one pound for every year as a souvenir - I take my vacationing seriously!), the catch-up that inevitably comes with vacation, unexpected visitors, the doctor and the dentist, the list continues but I won't bore you. And the cherry on top of it all - BACK TO SCHOOL. I knew it was coming, but I wasn't ready. I never am. I love school, my son loves school, and my daughter can't wait to start school - but I really dislike the schedule.
I've never been one for the regular 9 to 5 work day. I work for myself (most of the time) so I can have the flexibility I need for my family. I like projects - things I work really hard on for a time, finish, and move on... the school schedule doesn't really gel with my no schedule, schedule. It always takes me a few weeks to get back into the school groove. Why I thought this year would be different, I don't know.
This year I was planning to use back to school as the starting point to shed the extra luggage I packed on vacation - get back into my exercise program and back on track with my eating plan. Well, school has been in session for one month exactly, and I have not lost an ounce or broken a sweat in all this time. I have been struggling to get into a routine, to balance my work, my kids, the never-ending laundry, and all the things that seem to click along so well during the summer (and all the things that every other mom has to deal with, so suck it up already). But today the struggle is over, I tell you!
Today I blog! I have been avoiding the blog because I didn't have any kind of success story to share. Why would I post something that didn't show any progress on my "project" - who would care about that? Well, probably no one, but that's not the point. The point of my writing is to hold myself accountable, to work through whatever is keeping me from my goal. Avoidance is keeping me from my goal; it's very effective at making sure nothing happens - good or bad. I fancy myself a bit of a risk taker, and I'd like to think avoidance is not my usual M.O. - but I'd be wrong about that.
I avoid things that I assume will be unpleasant, even if they are necessary or required. Eventually I do whatever it is I'm avoiding, and often the relief that follows is incredible. But the build up to doing the thing is a ridiculous, guilt inducing, waste of time and energy. So there you have it - I am avoiding the blog because the only thing I have to write about is how I gained ten pounds on vacation, my jeans are screaming in protest, I can't get motivated to do anything about it, and I am using "back to school" and a busy schedule to excuse it all.
That wasn't so bad now, was it?
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